Men

They don't know how you're feeling

When you clearly show it on your face

Trot all over you

As if your feelings didn't matter

Hurt you without knowing it

Now that's the worst kind of hurt

Kick you when you're down

With that new boyfriend of theirs

Take advantage of you

He always knows what buttons to press

Keeps you when he needs you

But throws you away when you've been used up

Picture perfect

Until you hear he's interested in someone else

G-l-a-m-o-r-o-u-s

Until he tells you about his ugly past

Just fucking great

And great to fuck

Yet you'll never have him as yours

You'll only be a friend or friend with benefits

Face it

You're just a pawn of those disgraceful pigs we call

Men. 

Dying

Your warmth floods over me

And kills me with such passionate kindness

But it is a loving death, that I never want to end

But you strike me, with that icy dagger 

Ending my joy and bringing me cold misery. 

Bringing me not back to life but not completely dead either

I lay here dying, crying an ocean of tears

I lay here weeping, because you're in my mind

I lay here thinking, looking into the distance

I lay here staring, into your ghostly eyes

Grasping into nothingness I try to hold you close

But you are not there so I fall to the ground

Was it I who turned you away?

Nay, I can not say it was because 

As a human I lay here cursing other things 

So that I can soothe my own dejected soul

I thought that our pulsing love

Had faded away into nothing

But that damned flame won't fade

Burning so persistently, it makes me sick to the stomach

Yet pain so deeply in my heart. 

I lay here dying, cursing the heavens

Cursing the four corners of the earth

Cursing the very ground I walk upon

Cursing you

Cursing my heart

Cursing my very soul

Damned be the day that I ever fell in love with you

Damned be the day that you ever proposed to me

Damned be the day that we parted

Yet...

Blessed be the day that we might wed

Blessed be the day that we might kiss 

Blessed be the day I hold you close 

I lay here dying, yet laughing at my idiocy

You have changed and probably never want me again

Yet I stay here steadfast with a heart yearning to be yours

That damned spark wants to turn into a blazing flame again

My love for you, it seems to last an eternity

You've probably moved on. 

Have you?

I dare hope not

Because I lay here dying

Waiting for my prince to help me from the ground

And wipe away my tears and breath life into me with his kiss

I lay here dying...yet...

Where art thou...

Where are thou my Romeo?

I can't lay here dying this slow death, this miserable existance

I shall taketh the dagger as did Juliet

And instead of dying

I shall be dead

Away from the pain of you.

Never to be dying in misery again. 

Poem of Despair

Let's all just find a world 

Where merriment is just beyond our grasp

And Joy is so close but ever so far

But ever so far

Where we eat our tears for breakfast

And have desire for dessert

A place full of not hearts

But empty black holes

Somewhere where the skies are grey

Where the luster of the sun has faded away

Where children are not longer a blessing

And Death is welcomed with open, blood stained arms

So forget your dreams of bliss and wonder

And welcome this hell

This...

World of hollowed souls and pitch black hearts

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Drink up sweet sorrow

Keep leading me into

the hollow pit of darkness

Never letting me escape

for fear of joy's folly

For melancholy days

are the oly real things in this

wretched life that fate holds in

It's everlasting talon like hands of misguidance

A fool was I to believe

that they would meet me halfway

Now I am merely a shadow of what I was