Poems

Star Quality

2012-01-15T13:50:00.000-08:00

Turn me on

But I won't start

Fill me up

But I'm empty

Charge my motors

But they don't run

I'm a car

You expected a touch of reliability

But in the end I failed you

What's new lady?

Wind my gears

But I don't run

Pull my string

I don't talk

Put batteries in me

But I don't turn on

I'm a toy

You expected a touch of fun and hilarity

But in the end I let you down

What's new kid?

Put your faith in me

But things end in misery

Show me compassion

I give you anger in return

Give me the resources I need

But I do nothing with them

I'm a man

You expected a touch of star quality

But in the end I didn't meet you half way

What's new friend?

The car rusts

The toy abandoned

And as for the man, he's alone in the world

What's new?

The car sits

The toy rots

The man...feels the need to change.

What's new world?

I'm new. And I want to change

Let's not hold back now

Trust me once more

Put your faith in me

I want to give you progress

Show me compassion

I want to care for you in return

Give me the resources I need

I'll show the world how great I am

I'm a changed man

You should know what to expect in me

I'm hungry for success

I want the world to see what I can do

I want to do great things

That touch of star quality

Is now burning inside me.

An Ode to the Forgotten

2011-03-06T20:31:00.000-08:00

To those lost in time

I write to you

In this small finite passage

To try and bring back your memories

What stories you might unfold

If memory would ever serve me

But the minds was never meant to server, only aid

Nonetheless this composition will try and remember you

The nameless

the heroes who vanish from the world

The specters of ancient worlds

Silent plotters in the middle of the fray

Humble servants in the shadows

Deciders of imperative worth, lost in the mist

You all have shaped things in your own way

So why has the providence of history forsaken you?

Or has history drunk well from the waters of Lethe?

Are we all affected by a lack of cognition

Inhibiting our memories and erasing people from this world

Should we be put on trial

For killing off so many lives?

For those we forget, cease to exist

So is my mission futile?

To remember non-existing persons?

For how can one know or remember something that never existed in the first place

Let alone put people on trial for genocide of non-existent histories

Despite this paradox

Albeit this conundrum

You, the forgotten

phantasms of a historical kind

Will be remembered forever

Kept eternal always

By these ravings

By this cantankerous philosophy

Never to die again

...

Unless this poetic piece too

joins your ranks in the void of time...

Death of the Grotesque

2010-10-14T19:56:00.000-07:00

It is in times of despair

that we wish for happiness

It is in times of poverty

that we are desperate for fortune

When one's personality goes sour

We turn to those who are sweet

When the world goes to war

We seek peace

In times of loneliness

We devour attention

When in the presence of the naive

We turn to the mature

In the depths of the darkest evil

We seek the purity of light

When people seek to hurt

We go to the ones who nurture

And when we see a sight

unworthy of our eyes

We go to the beautiful

Whether you find one of these grotesque or many

We all wish for them to vanish completely from our site

Never return to our delicate memories

We wish them to die...in a metaphorical sense

Precious Love

2010-03-27T20:43:00.000-07:00

I write to you

Dearly beloved

I write to comfort

all the pain that I am feeling

I wish you could hold me tight

And banish the fear and darkness in my heart

So far away you are from me,

Yet I hold you so close in my dreams

Do not leave me, for I have finally

found you, and you have found me

The thought of losing you again is intolerable,

I would be so bold as to say that it is even taboo

Judging from the many trials we have gone through in years past

Do not lose sight,

of what wondrous riches you have in your possession

I am more precious than any priceless antique, you know this

And you hold so much value in my heart.

If my love could be counted as currency I would have an unlimited store of riches

You hold so much of me...

I would break into a million tiny fragments were you ever to let go and allow me to plummet to the cold floor of isolation

But don't keep me as a trophy on the wall just collecting dust because you can't muster the courage to shatter one so

Don't be afraid, because my heart will be reborn from the many shards scattered across the frozen wasteland

Keep me forever and hold me close because you want to feel the warmth of my heart, because you want to hear my sweet voice, because you desire to be mine forever

But most importantly, because you love me with all of your being

So please don't waiver, for if you do I will be lost to the winds and you will never know my love again.

This love you will never find anywhere else,

For it is mine, and mine alone

This love for you is delicate as a rose, and more beautiful than any rare gem found on this planet earth

Leave and you will never know the shining magnificence that my heart contains

I love you, I beg of you, never leave me, but never stay if you can not appreciate my rarest gem and love me back in return.

Change of Heart

2009-08-22T23:08:00.000-07:00

To change one's self at will

Can be the greatest of allies

But yet, it is my burden my...curse

So many to chose from

I can be what they want

With only a whim

But are any of them what I want?

Can they be what my heart desires...I wonder

Is there one for me, a foolish changeling of sorts?

I seduce, woo, and gain many a man's trust

Only to be overwhelmed by their quantity

And to be bored of them when one better than they comes along

I carelessly throw my affection this way and that

Caring for this one, making that one swoon, and bringing them all into my filthy clutches

What am I? Nothing but a monster with a thirst for hearts. A lustful desire for love.

Where does my lust start? And where does it end?

Only he can show me that...

The one I was meant to spend the rest of eternity with. My prince, my savior, my hero

So I sit, and wait in my dank and dark cave of misery. Waiting for my love to slay this evil beast that resides within

So that I will no longer hunger for love I can not have...

So that I may drink from his heart, brimming with love.

That sweet nectar, a delicacy even greater than that which has been touched by the lips of gods!

And he will be by my side, forever, and for always. Never once faltering, never once turning away from me, the one that he will love for eternity. Everlasting happiness.

Covered in grease and grime

2009-08-02T22:25:00.000-07:00

Strolling down this golden path
paved with the hopes and dreams of all
Goes on for miles, for you see
Hope and dreams are everlasting
And new ones are born each day
Here and there you see some wear and tear
But you don't pay attention to those
For why would something moldy and filled with disgust
ever attract your precious eyes?
But sometimes with a little effort
that mold and grime can be wiped away
And a shining golden brick can be seen
So don't forget the bricks, covered in grease and grime
For they just need some tender care
So that they may have the chance to shine

I beg of you

2009-07-09T22:16:00.000-07:00

breaking
into a thousand little pieces
right before your eyes
i've done you wrong
and you don't even know
the sorrow flowing throw my body
the pain I feel in my heart
please forgive my idiocy
forget what I have done
and embrace me with your loving arms once more
I cannot bare to see you this way

A rainbow is the loneliest thing

2009-06-29T15:21:00.000-07:00

A rainbow is the loneliest thing
that you will ever see
It doesn't come in groups or clusters
Only sporadically in ones but not twos

How sad it is to be alone like this
Where no one will speak to it
All may gaze but for the majority it is a stare of hate
Foul thoughts and devious things they think about the poor rainbow

But why does the rainbow receive such slanderous sayings, abuse, and even shame?
For the rainbow was created unique, so beautiful and regal
Why does it deserve the hate of many and acceptance of only a few?

How gorgeous a thing the rainbow is
Its colors the most sacred in the land
Red as the blood red rose
Orange as the fruit we eat
Yellow like the blazing sun
reen as rich as the grass we wlak upon
Blue like the sky during a warm spring day
And violet, so rare a site, more so than the others

So why all this wretched hate
for something so grand and unique?
We are all created equal and yet each person so unique

what if the tables were turned?
And the rainbow was many while you were just one
How would you feel if you were the one to be spurned, hated, feared, dreaded, forsaken, forgotten, mistreated, excommunicated, destroyed, killed, exiled, made into an outcast, fearful, tortured, deprived, suicidal, torn, lost, but most importantly silenced

Each day we, yes we
We are the rainbow
The gays, bisexuals, lesbians, and transgendered
Are silenced out of existence
Never letting the world see our beautiful interiors

Do you realize now
What all your hate has done
You have left us with little or no hope of finding acceptance at all
But there are those of us who stand up high and tall
Who go against your cruelties and injustice day by day

You see not all of us will cede our lives to your
petty hate and ignorance
Ther are those of us who will not go down, crashing into the sea
But instead rise up in a magnificent shining glory
of triumph and perseverance

So please, I ask of you
Look deep inside your heart
find the kindness and love
that is innate to us all
and be ride of this sin coated hatred you cling to so dearly
Embrace us and we can show you how glorious we are
Deface us and realize how powerful the voice of many can be

Tolerate or love us we hope you will
But until then ponder about how your hate can hurt
Hate is a powerful thing
But our love for who we are will always bring us out on top
Out into a bright and shining world

Dreams, wishes, hopes, and goals

2009-06-29T15:18:00.001-07:00

I dream of thee o' sir knight
To whisk me away on your valiant steed
I dream of love as vast as the sea

I wish to have fortune and riches a plenty
Wish to be able to express my true self
I wish to cure all of melancholy and evil

I hope to be able to stand hand in hand
With people of different orientations, races, and cultures alike
I hope to be able to live as long as can be

My goal is to be famous
Known to many far and wide
My goal is to be wed to the man I cherish and love
My goal is to bring joy to many

These are my dreams, wishes, hopes, and goals
Throughout time may many more unfold

Colors

2009-06-29T15:16:00.000-07:00

Your lips are as red as the purest rose
Eyes green as the evergreen forest
Hair as golden as a sunflower glowing in the sun

The night sky black as sin
The oceans so royally blue
Sand so white it would shame the purest soul

The velvet that she wears, its color so elegant and purple
That shirt he wears, oh so drearily grey
A dress I see, so devilishly pink

These colors and more flash by
So vivid and grandiose
They nurture my eyes
and give them reason to be

Haiku of ages

2009-06-29T15:15:00.001-07:00

Swiftly running through
the garden of lost ages
never turning back

Mannequin

2009-06-29T15:11:00.000-07:00

You stand there pale and cold as frost
I'm on my knees, warm and flush
Pouring my heart and soul out to you
Confessing the many years of my love for you
Yet you stand there frozen in an unsympathetic daze
Not caring for one word that I give willingly to you
"What are you?" I ask when you don't respond
How could you forsake my feelings and just stand there in devilish silence?
Not a word comes from your mouth as I shout in your face
You stand still and steadfast as though I have become some invisible entity
Stuck in that pose of antipathy
You wear those clothes as if...
as if...
You were not a man
But some doll
A mannequin of sorts
I stop in reazisation and you walk away
No sound coming from your feet as they hit the ground
The color faded from your figure
Looking as if you were not breathing at all
I see now that I was a fool
to ever fall in love with you
You were never the man of my dreams
Just the mannequin of my nightmares
Someone who doesn't care for the world or anyone in it
A lifeless vessel set on this earth to tear me asunder

Death of Beauty

2009-04-08T21:05:00.000-07:00

This is the death of romance

Of sweet uncensored love

passionate kisses and warm embraces

of gentle touching and nights of holding each other tight

sweet words and silent gazing into each other’s eyes

This is the death of imagination

Of scaly purple dragons

beautiful scenes and glistening things

in the depths of one’s mind

of abstracts, constructs, life-forms, and views none of the likes you have ever seen

gazing into a creation made by one or many

This is the death of writing

of sonnets written by diligent hands

epic stories of the ever triumphant hero

going against all odds

of limericks so rude and comical

Books written by creative minds

words flowing from hand to page

This is the death of music

of melodious notes rising from glorious instruments

glorious voices singing versus so fiercely

of the lyrics so stable and black on the page of white

a blazing glory of evocative rhythms and sounds

This is the death of nature

of beautiful willows swaying so gently in the breeze

the red rose so elegant in all its regal glory

of fields of daisies and orchards of apples

cherry blossoms so evocative with their unique pink shade

This is the death of life

of newborns so innocent and picturesque

the children parents so hold dear to them

of men and women, who share such love for each other

the animals, such glorious creatures they are

But most importantly, this is the death of beauty

of the romance we so tenderly give

imagination so astonishing and vast

of the writing we all love and cherish

music so harmonious and emotional

of nature with its many surprises and mysteries

Life, the one thing that we all hold dear

This is the death of all these things

The end of all that we have worked so hard to achieve

The death of all things beautiful

Crimson Arrow of Love

2009-04-07T15:47:00.000-07:00

Who shot that crimson arrow?
That pierced deep into my breast
Touched my heart and took my head for a spin

Au revoir to all direction
for cloud nine has me tight
within it's wondrous grasp

I don't know where I am
What I see, hear, or even what I know
Because all I think is...

You

Your delicate touch
Everlasting kiss, and dazzling personality
Your face glows like stars in the heavens
Hair flowing so gracefully in the soft wind
Your soft silky skin, makes me melt as I touch
The taste of your luscious lips as red as a blooming rose
As I hold you close I smell the exotic fragrance that is yours

You enrapture all my sense love
You have me caught in your dazzling stare
I've turned not to stone but a melted pool of love for you
Your siren like song pulls me in to
Not a talon filled grasp but a tender and warm embrace

You are so much to me
As I hope I am to you
The world, nor sun, nor the Milky Way galaxy
Can encompass my feelings for you

How long was I lost
before I found your dazzling light?
How long was I waiting
before you appeared before me?
How much pain have I suffered
before you found your way into my heart?

Do you ever think when laying all alone
What the future could hold for us?
How far we can reach in to the sky?
Is it possible to touch the moon?
Or one of the many glimmering stars
that bedazzle the midnight sky?

By binding us into this relationship
I give you all my trust
My never ending care
My warm embrace
My ever flowing love
I give you everything

As this poem keeps on going
As the seconds fly by
As the hours pass
As the year creeps by
My fondness grows for you
More and more every day
Not a moment passes that
My feelings for you do not grow stronger

I could let this poem
go on forever till infinity
Just like my feelings do
Just like the endless grains of time
To show you how much...

How much I think of you
How much I care for you
How far my gentle hands will reach
Mow much I long to say those three sacred words to you

So who shot that crimson arrow
The pierced straight through my breast
Touched my heart and took my head for a spin
It now weighs heavy on my heart
This feeling that I must express
How can I just say it in a few words?
Silly me, I know just what to say
Three words. Three sweet simple, yet powerful words
That carry across mounts
Part waters and influence many
The three words that can bring joy into your life
Three words...
I
love
you

Love

2009-04-03T18:42:00.000-07:00

Waves of love
That reach across time
And even the infinite plane of space
Are the most precious kind
That two persons can have for each other

For they have the power
To change the world
To connect to one another
To leap across mountains
To endure the most tempting sin

For this is love in it's truest form
Love that knows no boundaries
Love that knows no gender
Love that knows no distance

Formal Apology Poem

2009-04-02T21:28:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for the things
That I have said and done
I say things without thinking
how they could harm you so

I have no excuse for what
I said to you
No arguments or little sayings
There is nothing else but this to say

I'm sorry for how rude I was
I hope you can forgive
My insensitivity which shot
straight through your feelings
My rude and ignorant mouth
For ever uttering such words
My incompetent brain
for not thinking before I speak

You are such a wonderful friend
And I cherish you in my heart
As I do all of my dearest friends
and would never want to hurt you
But fact is I have and now I have learned
So I am sorry my dear friend
Not once, not twice, and not three times
But I am as sorry as the grains of sand are innumerable.
As sorry as far as the eye can see
As sorry as the universe stretches on forever
I am sorry, please accept this apology poem as a token of our friendship
May it last for eternity.

Earth Hour

2009-03-29T08:33:00.000-07:00

Lights fall in the wake
of a monumental movement
spread wide across the world

Darkness, symbolic of not evil
But the will of mankind to save a planet
Shared by all and loved by many

What can you do to save and nurture
This sacred place that gives birth
To so much wonder and beauty?

One human can make the difference
One group can change a nation
A unity of nations can change the world

Earth Hour has come and gone
And every single human has shown their nation
Has shown the WORLD
How much our planet earth means to us all.

Midsummer nights embrace

2009-03-24T19:08:00.000-07:00

Sweetly singing on.
A midsummer nights grass field
Longing to hold you

Dismal story of a dispirited fool

2009-03-21T19:04:00.000-07:00

Will thou drown me in contempt?
Forsake my every move?

Rip happiness from my breast
and inject my lungs with melancholy air?

Far too long have I been in this dejected state
Far too long have I been aching for someone to soothe my soul
Why can't I be rid of this abhorrent daze of woe?

The gods, they love to torture me and my poor incarcerated heart.
Doomed to be imprisoned by this maelstrom of pain
Forever teetering on the edge of emptiness and light

But who can help this poor crestfallen soul?
I have gone to many, hurt many
Who would want to help someone as detestable as I?
Surely not those of a sane mind.

But ah, that wretched strand of light
That persistent shining beam of hope
It wants me to keep on, to try and go on.
But these torrents of hate, pain, depression, and emptiness...

These swirling masses that drown my confidence
Decimate my happiness
Obliterate my desires
Silence my laughter
And butcher my heart

How long must I persist before I can not persist any longer?
How long will my ray of light shine through this never ending darkness?
More importantly, does anyone care?
Do men care that they hurt me when they hush their mouths?
Do women care when they don't even call?
Does family care when they shun my true form?

I have been forgotten
Laid to waste
Banished to rot
Pierced by cupids godforsaken arrow
And no one to express myself to
But who would want to hear a child whine?
Who wants to hear the dismal story of a dispirited fool?

Contagion

2009-02-26T20:59:00.001-08:00

Like I really care
about your petty problems
Your unfortunate undermining

These problems I've faced
And yet you complain
Don't be an emotional drama queen

Get over yourself
life's not that bad
or else you would be dead amongst strangers
Either that or possibly being ravaged by your worst nightmare

So don't draw me into your
insignificant "melodrama" you call life
Right now, I could care less

So take your post traumatic stress disorder
Take your emo tragedy
And behoove yourself to smile
It's contagious

Untitled

2009-02-01T01:07:00.000-08:00

What do you make of this
Oh faithful friend of mine?
This dazzling glamour of love and caress we're in?

Does it not seem like bliss,
an ever wonderful canvas of light blues and vivid yellows
Of deep reds and glittering greens.

Oh such glorious feelings
Marvelous shades of changing emotions
Gorgeous changes of the heart and mind
Dazzle me with your love kind sir!

My stomach stirs and this energy
bout ready to burst surges through my veins
Wanting to release. But where is mine outlet?

My embrace, a facade but still there
Emanating through these feelings jolting through my corpse
My kiss, an illusion but yet it is not
Can you feel it? My body against yours
Drinking up your kind warmth
Soaking in your tender feelings
And giving back to you ten fold

Can you feel it?
This amiable apparition?
This phantasmal crush
Are you able to touch across mountains?
Able to wield your feelings and take what is rightfully yours?
To strike down any obstacle in your path?

For I am forever waiting, for your sweet and gentle touch
But for now, this image of compassion will serve as the fountain
from which I drink up your love
As can you drink from my vision of amour
So drink, and never thirst again.

Crystal Smile

2009-01-29T20:37:00.001-08:00

Your life is spotted with such trivial worries
Why fret when there is so much more to living?
Don't let your duties as an adult annihilate
the instincts and imagination granted by the child in you

How dare you let love go
Don't give me such excuses
Your dreams are dashing away
right before your very eyes

Is this what you want?
Mundane atrocities?
Nay, your heart yearns for more
A blissful world of love and caring
Where he is there by your side

You smiled at that
I saw it on your face
It glimmers like stars twinkling in the night
So beautiful and radiant
Show him that radiance, let it be his guide to you

No matter who or where he is
Your love for him
and his love for you
Shall guide you both through a life
of Longevity
and eternal happiness.

Shine brightly
My crystal smile

My Tenshi (Angel)

2009-01-29T20:08:00.000-08:00

I gaze upon you from afar
O' soldier of the fated star
Gaze back at me with your shimmering grace
I yearn for the day I see your face
So close we are yet...
Distances, miles, feet, yards, millennium even

I know not when our eyes shall gaze into
Each others blazing soul
I am impatient, and so naive.
But fate likes to mess with those who can not wait
So you fall further and further away from me
Oh, it seems like my destiny just wants to rip open my heart

O' heart, please grant me the patience of a thousand sands
O' soul, please bring my true love closer to me
O' body, feel for his aura when it comes near
O' mind, recognize his thoughts as you wander through time
O' fate, please do not trouble this shattered heart of mine anymore
And destiny...make my dreams not a shimmering facade but a shining GLORY

Bring him hence
Bring him hence
Bring him hence

Nay, guide me to him
Wind, help me shout to the four corners of the world
help me shout out so that he may hear my delicate words of love
Divine water, send surging waves of passion through his veins
So that he may feel my warmth
Earth, I send you to wrap him in sweet embrace
So that he may know my touch
Blazing fire, give me your blaze
So that he may taste my desire
And graceful light, shine into every corner of darkness
To let him see how beautiful my heart shines for him

Let his senses be all a tingle
The one I shout to, feel, desire, love, embrace...
Him...
The only one in this universe for me
My
Adoring
Never ending
Generous
Embracing
Loving
ANGEL

Shadow

2009-01-15T10:27:00.000-08:00

Swinging softly in moonlight's grace

Gazing into the universe as I ponder

Thinking about what could have been

Wishing that things would go my way

All the way, for once.

The stars start to fade one by one

The moonlight dissolves

I am left standing alone

In a desolate darkness surrounded by nothing

Where is the light to guide me now?

Millenia pass and I become one with the darkness

My eyes become nocturnal

My skin becomes shadow itself

My heart, cold and desolate

Feeding on naught but my cold blindness

I am shadow itself

Turning back now would be nigh impossible

Yet, something stirring in me

Something, pricking at my insides

Hope, as I used to know it.

Suddenly, it starts to burn and sear my flesh

Pink hues appear and the night dissipates

My eyes singe as vivid colors flow through

Finally, a pain worthy of death punctures my heart

I fall into a daze of color and wonder

I wake up, looking at people

People whom I know, people that love me for who I am

They are my guiding light, my saving grace, my...life

They have delivered me from shadow

From that everlasting lonliness and depravity. Thank you

Men

2008-12-15T22:42:00.001-08:00

They don't know how you're feeling

When you clearly show it on your face

Trot all over you

As if your feelings didn't matter

Hurt you without knowing it

Now that's the worst kind of hurt

Kick you when you're down

With that new boyfriend of theirs

Take advantage of you

He always knows what buttons to press

Keeps you when he needs you

But throws you away when you've been used up

Picture perfect

Until you hear he's interested in someone else

G-l-a-m-o-r-o-u-s

Until he tells you about his ugly past

Just fucking great

And great to fuck

Yet you'll never have him as yours

You'll only be a friend or friend with benefits

Face it

You're just a pawn of those disgraceful pigs we call

Men.

Dying

2008-12-14T11:27:00.000-08:00

Your warmth floods over me

And kills me with such passionate kindness

But it is a loving death, that I never want to end

But you strike me, with that icy dagger

Ending my joy and bringing me cold misery.

Bringing me not back to life but not completely dead either

I lay here dying, crying an ocean of tears

I lay here weeping, because you're in my mind

I lay here thinking, looking into the distance

I lay here staring, into your ghostly eyes

Grasping into nothingness I try to hold you close

But you are not there so I fall to the ground

Was it I who turned you away?

Nay, I can not say it was because

As a human I lay here cursing other things

So that I can soothe my own dejected soul

I thought that our pulsing love

Had faded away into nothing

But that damned flame won't fade

Burning so persistently, it makes me sick to the stomach

Yet pain so deeply in my heart.

I lay here dying, cursing the heavens

Cursing the four corners of the earth

Cursing the very ground I walk upon

Cursing you

Cursing my heart

Cursing my very soul

Damned be the day that I ever fell in love with you

Damned be the day that you ever proposed to me

Damned be the day that we parted

Yet...

Blessed be the day that we might wed

Blessed be the day that we might kiss

Blessed be the day I hold you close

I lay here dying, yet laughing at my idiocy

You have changed and probably never want me again

Yet I stay here steadfast with a heart yearning to be yours

That damned spark wants to turn into a blazing flame again

My love for you, it seems to last an eternity

You've probably moved on.

Have you?

I dare hope not

Because I lay here dying

Waiting for my prince to help me from the ground

And wipe away my tears and breath life into me with his kiss

I lay here dying...yet...

Where art thou...

Where are thou my Romeo?

I can't lay here dying this slow death, this miserable existance

I shall taketh the dagger as did Juliet

And instead of dying

I shall be dead

Away from the pain of you.

Never to be dying in misery again.

Poem of Despair

2008-12-05T22:05:00.000-08:00

Let's all just find a world

Where merriment is just beyond our grasp

And Joy is so close but ever so far

But ever so far

Where we eat our tears for breakfast

And have desire for dessert

A place full of not hearts

But empty black holes

Somewhere where the skies are grey

Where the luster of the sun has faded away

Where children are not longer a blessing

And Death is welcomed with open, blood stained arms

So forget your dreams of bliss and wonder

And welcome this hell

This...

World of hollowed souls and pitch black hearts

Untitled

2008-12-05T22:03:00.001-08:00

Drink up sweet sorrow

Keep leading me into

the hollow pit of darkness

Never letting me escape

for fear of joy's folly

For melancholy days

are the oly real things in this

wretched life that fate holds in

It's everlasting talon like hands of misguidance

A fool was I to believe

that they would meet me halfway

Now I am merely a shadow of what I was

Bonds of fate

2008-11-25T20:28:00.001-08:00

I dare not tread this earth alone

For its walks are more treacherous than

The fiery bowels of Hades lair

I can not, nay, I will not

Walk this earth alone

Fate, O' Fate!

I will not!

I shall not!

Walk this accursed earth alone!

Your curse holds no power in this realm of mortals

A realm full of citizens capable of mangling your

Wretched sense of destiny

Chewing its virality and spitting it into the flames of destruction

I shall fight your tyranny till my last breath

For I shall not tread this earth alone!

Forsake me all that you want

Curse me all that you will

Outcast me to the furthest regions of the universe

Banish me to the depths of Hades' pit

I shall not cede my destiny to your morbid hands

Tear my dignity to shreads

Do what you will to my pride

Make my life the most miserable facade you can

Tear my self from the recesses of my soul!

You shall not have your way with me like a ravaging monster who preys on mortal souls

So help me I shall stand in battle and defeat thee!

My destiny is my own

No one can make me do anything against my bidding

For I am ruler over my actions

By the gods I so declare

I shall not tread this god forsaken hellion of a planet alone!

You

2008-11-15T09:51:00.000-08:00

Deep in the night

I think of something

During the brightest day

I think of who?

When I'm chatting it up

I think of someone

When just pondering my day

My thoughts are centered on one thing

During my daily routine

I ponder about this beauty I know

While reading novels of interest

I wonder if my life with someone will be as adventurous as this

When I dream

My thoughts drift off to a kind and gentle wonder

Listening to music I

Hear that melodious voice

When looking through pictures

I gaze and smile at that beauteous face

I think you know who I think about

I think you know who I speak of

Because this poem, you should know

Is for none but...

You.

Chance

2008-11-12T18:44:00.000-08:00

Opportunity lies in wake
for those who have the ability to wait
For those impatient and future unknown
Devastation and gloom unfold
Take that chance, grab that risk
Take lady luck out for a spin
Bat away fate
Backhand Destiny
Be the king of your fate
Grab the reigns of destiny!
Yell out! "O' fate! Thou dost control me no more!"
Screech to the heavens. "O' Destiny! Thou art cruel but thy shackles hinder me no more."
So don't back out but back in
Be not afraid and plunge right into the murky waters of the future!
Chance!

Purge

2008-11-12T18:43:00.000-08:00

How does the day greet you?
I'm sure it's not well.
He treats you like an ornament hung up on his wall
I know I was wrong
To leave you that day
So why can't you see
That I want you back someday

You confuse me
You talk to me one day but forsake me another
I understand you're busy
But this is absurd
Talk to me

Please, try to make atleast some time for me
I want you to know I'm here
I want you back, don't you know?

Just leave him, I want to say
But that would be rude
And it would only push you away
But if I can not have you
Then please, just purge me of all emotion

Leave me devoid...
A gaping black hole...

Hallway of fate

2008-11-12T18:42:00.000-08:00

The soft clack of elegant shoes can be heard
Approaching the door of ages
Walking down this hallway of fate
Many a feet have traveled down this narrow pathway
A lonely and despairing task, don't you think?
Reader if you do not wish to suffer the same agony
I suggest you stop reading, for it only gets worse
You see this person here is a special case, as good as they can get
A perky one was he, before he came down this fated path
But then tragedy struck him in the heart, why multiple times I would say
Oh look, here he comes, into view of that aged door.
His face sunken, body slouched, hair unkempt, oh what a mess
His physical appearance must be an almost perfect mirror image of the
Devastation on his heart. Miserable, melancholy, angered, distressed, hurt, longing, loving.
All of these emotions running inside his poor poor heart.
And so, some round here would say his fate is sealed
A lifetime of misery can be seen ahead of him.
But wait! A light glimmers off to the side of the hallway, just before that vile door
Hope has risen in this man, and he opens a gateway and changes his destiny
Everlasting happiness, instead of godforsaken misery.

Pain

2008-11-12T18:41:00.002-08:00

I talked to you the other day
Oh wondrous friend of mine
A schism kept us apart for so long...
I was the one who was to blame
I was the one who gave you pain

We used to date, you and I
but my foolishness broke that bond in two
I wanted to apolgise for so long
I was the one who was to blame
I was the one who gave you pain

I finally told you that I was sorry
And asked, if we could make that bond anew
But you said that you would have to think awhile before you knew
I was the one who was to blame
I was the one who gave you pain

Oh now I see the truth, what you were hiding from me
You've found another, this I see
It can't be helped...I was too late
I was the one who was to blame
But now I am in the one in pain

I guess now I know that I did like you alot back then
But please, don't think this is your fault
My idiocy brought this upon myself
I am the one who is to blame
I am the one who caused my own pain

I want to end this depressive poem
With a statement of my own
I hope you are happy with him, don't worry about me for
I am the one who is to blame
And I am the one who has to deal with my pain

Hate

2008-11-12T18:41:00.001-08:00

I hate you
I hate my feelings
I hate it all

Why won't this incessant rage stop?
Why won't this pain fade?
Why can't I stop being the fool that I am?

Constantly tormented
Constantly tossed around
Constantly pushed between indecisiveness

Leave me be
Just go away
What I need, is time
and lots of love

A poem for the naive

2008-11-12T18:40:00.002-08:00

A poem for the naive

Hmmm? You expect me to wait for you?

For two whole years?

You love me even though we’ve known

each other for only one week?

Marriage, you say?

I’m not into that kind of commitment yet.

Please wait, let me figure out my feelings

Don’t try to rush things

Your naivety serves no purpose in a relationship

It only pushes me further

Why do you do this to me?

What can you gain from rushing things like this?

You’re suffocating me...

with those impossible child-like dreams

of your fantasies that can’t come true

until we get to know each other better

Awww, how sweet of you to say such a thing

I’m sorry, I can’t reciprocate those feelings

Why are you crying?

Do you want me to lie?

Because then you’ll hear everything

that your little heart desires.

But here take this poem

that I wrote just for you

A poem for the naive

Just like you

A poem for another friend

2008-11-12T18:40:00.001-08:00

I remember back
when we first met
You were so kind
And I was so shy

Throughout the years
Our bond has grown
And now we are
Such close friends

You are a friend
who has been there for me
A friend whom
I can trust

I hope that we stay this way
for ever and eternity
For you were my first best friend
I’ll never forget that

Thank you for everything
From your kindness to
your love for me as a sister
I hold you dear, my dearest friend.

A poem for a friend

2008-11-12T18:39:00.000-08:00

A friend is someone who
you hold dear
Who you stick with
through thick and thin

A friend is someone
That you will always love
Even if they spurn and hate
And if they shun you from their life

Don’t give up on your friends
That’s what friendship is all about
They are there, to relieve your pain
And dry up all your tears of sorrow

So please, don’t back away
Don’t hide from me
No matter what you do,
I will always be your friend.

Smile’s facade

2008-11-12T18:37:00.000-08:00

We fight

You cry

I cry

Both of us, in a melancholy daze.

Weeks pass by, but nothing has changed

I try to smile, but it’s not really a smile

You see that and turn your face

I become angry and yet sad at the same time

I want to smile again, a true smile

Yet my heart will not allow it

It wants me to wallow in misery

To drown me so that I die

If I am to be sad, my heart wants me to go all the way

For I am one who cannot stand pain

But yet, I try to smile

A facade, if you will

So that I won’t drown

So that I won’t die

So I thank you my last hope

Smile’s facade